now i have the phobia of relationships and marriage. i have no experience in both fields but the observation simply blew my mind away! i have the impression that relationships is all abt whispering sweet nothings, be there for each other and of course those occasional quibbles. however, as sad as it can gets, it seems like its more about being tied down, reporting your location every now and then, restricted priviledges of going out with opposite sex. going steady with your partner is just like saying "hey, i'm born for you. you can only have me. that's M, E, me! no one else. your eyes can wonder nowhere but on me!" . to me now, marriage is really the grave of manhood.(interestingly i thought about this when i was going to me ancestors' graves.haha). instead of beinghappily spending the rest of your life with your lover, it's more about spending the rest of your life shouting, quarrelling(quarrels. not quibble) with the person who sleep next to you every night. from making love, it became the mechanical sex making. (there's a difference!)
well, i got into officer cadet school. my dream but i'm not very excited about that. most people i've known deserve to be in the school as well. the system really sucks. those who can't work but know how to curry favour gets in. what in world is this becoming to? is this just a preview about life in society? sometimes being a adult sucks. or should i say becoming an adult sucks? anyway, back to the ocs thingy, i'm glad that i'm going to start my career officially in two days time. it's cool but i hope(partly sure) that i didn't sign the contract because of a moment of rash.
suddenly, i feel that my english is really gone. what english? lol.
why do people, especially adults, like to ease off the feeling of offence or superiority by making comments or orders respectively into a laughing affair by saying ha ha ha ha at the end of their sentences?
