it's funny how sometimes you look at somebody and think, this fellow has it all. good grades, a nice bunch of friends to hang out with, cosy home, hobby, a stable relationship, and maybe charity work now and then. then, you suddenly realised that there's just something wrong but you couldn't figure out why. could it be jealousy? i sat down and give it a good thought.

sometimes, parents, wanting their sons or daughters to be the model children, mould them in such a way that they seem successful. or rather, they are successful. i can't say they are not. they have it all. the question is just, did that child lose his/her characters and personalities through it? i've seen much successful young adults flaunting their lives away. only if you personally know them or have came to known a little secret or two, you realised, they seem to be filling up that very something that is missing in their lives. these are the very people who will get hurt, get all sensitive all by themselves when no one is accusing them of anything.

these are the people who often dream big (and sadly for us, they achieve big too). everything is reachable. that's why they dream big. they dream of making the first million before they embarked on making the first dollar. and the funny thing, even if they fail, they have so many attempts at that million again. this is the very exact reason why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. we all know how that works. i've said it so many times. this is the very reason why i want to be rich for my son.

these are the very people who make good hi-bye friends. they can bring you to glamarous party but they might not lend you that helping hand you need. they are the very people who you talk and laugh with the whole night but never been able to explain why you can't talk about certain close-t0-heart issue with them. they are the very people who will tell you all sorts of plan to make that first million but never actually get to helping you realised that little creative idea of yours.

so, i really wonder if i should feel happy or sad for them. they are REALLY successful. it's just that unexplainable weirdness about them. i shall blame it on jealousy. for it will be straightforward and i do not have to be labelled sour grapes in their eyes.

caught up with really close friends lately and i was brought back to where i was, the state i was when i'm always successful. that helps. thanks man.

the thing about us, humans, is, do we behave like how we expect others to behave? do we give what we expect to receive?

case in point. girls always want assurance, care and concern. do they give it? why are they always sitting down and expecting to have it when they don't give it? if they can understand the pain of not having any assurance, why aren't they giving it? why must it be a one way thing?

i'm sick and tired of having to please people. it's time i get pleased.