on the contrary to the previous blog, i read a report from US track & field and apparently they discourage long distance athletes from drinking too much. they said that we should only drink when we feel thirsty. then again, i'm assuming that this report is for race while the previous one is for training.

my cycling fitness has dropped drastically. i can't even maintain a good speed for long. only managed to hold it for about 10km when i used to be able to hold it to near 18km. ah. think i cycled near or more than 60km today. but i still can reach suan's standard of 100+km per training. today supposed to be long distance aerobic training but my thighs cant hang on. maybe it's due to yesterday route march. the worse is actually my butt. it hurts after sitting on the saddle for so long. bah...i'm really shagged after today's ride.

i must say my intuition about grace is always right. i met her today. actually i planned not to go but intuition just told me i will be able to see her. i'm still mesmerised i must say. then again, while i saw her, i felt on top of the world but now i felt as if i'm standing at the lowest point on earth. it's like those kind of so near yet so far kinda feelings.

maybe when i book in later, i must tell yp to stop some of her behavior. the way she cough, look at people, brush her hair is EXACTLY the way grace does it. sometimes i feel like going to yp n tell her that it's an exclusive action for grace. anyway, it's a progress lah. damn slow progress but i like it that way. better than nothing.

"when you feel thirsty, it's too late." -training tips. never fail to drink water when you train or when you race. had a 8km run up and down the OCS 'roller coaster' route six times. i think by the word roller coaster you should know how the route is like. up and down up and down. damn it man. still have this 'stairway to heaven' at the end of the route. my plan was to sprint up the 'stairway to heaven' every round and to drink half a cup of water every two round. (btw, each round is 1.3km). this was proven slow after the second round and i decided to walk up the stairs and drink one cup of water every round. 41:03mins. geez. not bad. i proved to my friend that i can do longer distance better. also, nowadays, my aim in all these runs is to try to beat the commando officer who beat me at the last 200m of the 2.4km ippt run. damn it. oh btw, my front crawl stroke has also improve drastically after the daily chin up regime. now i can pull the water with more power and kick with more power too.

how would you feel if you told someone that you are feeling down and that person called you at 2330 to talk to you just before she goes to bed, knowing that her mum is against the idea of her using the phone?

happy hour at the cadets' mess last night. woo! have u seen fifty over guys get high before? it was damn fun last night man. i didn't know we will be able to get so high in a military camp. i knocked out the moment my head reach the pillow. good night sleep though. haha. luckily 5BX was cancelled because of the happy hour hang over and we have nothing much for the day except for some history field trips. if you guys can recall, i did mention about quitting drinking and clubbing. oh well. i was in the mood yesterday! darn happy. had a wonderful chat with grace on the previous night. woo. i think i look stupid moving around looking for a handphone charger before my battery go out and cut the line. oh well, i'm in mood for clubbing later also! i think grace is getting more matured and more friendly towards me. haha!

"95% of friction is caused by the wrong use of words" - unknown source
how true. it's amazing how we can create conflict just by using the wrong words or the wrong tone. although we jolly well know that we don't mean it but others don't see so. even when i can understand that sometimes people don't mean it, i still get pissed no matter what. i have seen how appointment holders lose or win the crowd by the wrong or tactical choice of words respectively. i also noted something interesting today. in a group of people, there seem to be this period of time when everyone bonds well together. if you happen to be absent at this critical period of time, good luck, you will find it not as easy to mix into the group. somehow somewhat you will have to put in the extra effort. last month, because i was the ic for my platoon, i missed this critical period and i find it really hard to 'join in'. now that i'm just a normal cadet, i find it so easy to mix with everyone whereas my friend who seem to miss out this period is finding some difficulties.

i didn't know there are so many things for me to do at home by staying at home on a saturday night. normally i go out till wee hours of the night. not bad. i read up alot about training and proper bike fitting. bike fitting is chim. at first i thought as long as i'm comfortable then it's fine but i think i need to have a better fit. i'm going to invest in a racer very soon. maybe next year. fruitful night i must say. and the best part of it is by indulging in all the things i love, i'm forgetting whatever sad things in my mind.

btw, i added a few new links. slowtwitch is a very good websites for triathletes wannabes. importtuner is more for those who will look at those exotic car that drive past you.

now every night i feel as if i'm a part time coach-in-training. been reading up so much about coaching and training methods. i believe no one else is better to be your own coach. by practising self-coaching after gaining the necessary knowledge, we can remove one weak link in athlete-coach relationships. this is vital as coaches may misunderstand athlete's feedback and hand out the inappropriate training schedule. however, there's one important thing to note that is self-discipline. as your own coach, no one is going to issue you with training programmes or wake you up to train. the onus of training is on yourself. with self discipline, selfcoaching become a very good thing because you know when it's best to push harder and when it's best to take the day off. it's a more efficient system of training.

"The first rule of being a great teacher — keep being a student. " -scott molina (one of my most admired triathlete)

you know, i don't know if other units like SISPEC practise this, but this is one good thing about OCS (or is it only Air wing?). we were given this E-learning period when we can do ANYTHING we want but sleep. it's suppose to be a period of self learning and improving. i thought this idea is good because i can use this time to train. the good thing is we can swim, something which OCS never do. i can use the gym to train up too. so many things i can do. by the way, if you haven't understand yet, i'm now really like in a university. i will have to attend lectures till dinner time and then it will be either group project discussion or our own personal time in which i use to read 'triathlete' and take notes(literally) about the training methods.

oh, by the way, i had a breakthrough in my physical conditions. my 2.4km run timing is now 9:39mins. personal best of course. ever since the day i step into NS, i have been only improving on the run. my aim now is to get it under 9:15mins. my chin-ups had also hit 11. the reason why i'm happy when my chin-up improve is because when the chin-up power increase, the power for your front crawl swim pull will also increase since both movement uses the same muscles. however, sadly to say, i have also discovered a very bad point about my running. when the weather is way too humid, my core body just doesn't maintain the proper posture and this make running even more tiring and back may ache the next day. i must start to train myself to maintain the posture in extreme heat conditions since my ultimate aim is the ironman and in ironman malaysia(nearest available), the run will most likely be in the mid noon heat.

i'm feeling down now. don't know why. maybe i will go for a training ride alone later. it's been so long since i last rested my butt on the saddle. i hope my cycling power had improve after all the running up and down four storeys more than 10 times a day last month. oh btw, a lady in my wing clocked 10:46mins for her 2.4km run, beating alot of guys. she's fit man

it's been so long since i last updated this thing. it is all because that ocs encourage us to keep a journal and so i don't want to waste much time writing about the same thing. this week was quite an interesting week. i was transfer to air wing. haha. of course other that that, there are more interesting thing.

according to reliable resources, my mdm now was a farmer. she slogged(exact words she used) her way through poly to get into what she is now. a Air Defence Artillery female officer. a 2nd lieutanent. i'm impressed by that story. i also know another girl who worked 16 hours a day just to be independent. tough job she had from what i saw last weekend. life is definitely hard but it's encouraging to see there are people around who never give up. it's like giving myself a reason not to give up at any one point.

also, this week i met a F5 fighter pilot. a major at the age of 30 drawing salary of S$12,000! not only that, he's in charge of the electronic warfare for the RSAF. he taught us how important job satisfaction is and how interest in a job is so important. basically he can jolly well go and work for the SIA and draw a much higher salary but he find job satisfaction in the air force. at the end of the day he knows that he's protecting his homeland, his country. after hearing much from what he say, i have more reason to convince myself why i sign on in the SAF.

this week is a horny week man i must admit. maybe it's because the lecture is too boring and thoughts stray. maybe it's the picture of fiona xie in front of me when i use the urinal. haha. that day i was actually thinking about how woman orgasm is like. is it really as high as whatever sources i read?