Thursday, August 27, 2009

had a lot of self-discovery lately. all triggered by the simple thought that i've changed much over the years. i've lost a few principles in the process of achieving some shortage that i needed much when i was younger. and now, i just have to find them back. and my life will be all balanced again.

and of course, finding myself back is such a happy thing.

to know that i was, am a good man.

our body is merely a physical being to take us to our destination.

this, coming from someone who is sick for more than a week already. the week of illness really made me realised how important the body is to me. without it, i can literally do nothing. or rather, i can't do everything. work took a plunge. fitness definitely plunge. with only a congratulatory note of a 2.5kg weight loss. now, i've learnt to feed it with the right nutrients and give it a proper system rest everyday. and of coz, to nourish the mind each day. with the recovery in sight, i'm more motivated now to keep it in good shape. figuratively or literally. i've been in a round shape for too long. or maybe i'm just getting vain.

today, i've thought through the things i want to achieve at work. either i'm too ambitious and impatient, or i'm meant to do more, or just my organisation are just paying us too much. there were times i felt like i could have done more but is normally rejected on pay scale basis. how much money do u need to pay for such little (or so i thought) project? and after attending some conference, it turns out that, sometimes, it really take alot of money to get things going! *shocked!

and i have another plan for work today. i wrote it down. and the more i write, the more i realised it's moving up the management level. the timeframe also got longer and longer. seems like its not so easy to move up the corporate ladder too. i know i can do the job that they pay those old people to do. i just gotta be patient now. i shall take this as a time to learn from the ground and so when i reach the top, i will be good! and this is the very thing i need to bring to my office. the attitude of wanting to excel at your work.

sometimes, its just tough to balance between keeping your enthusiaism and motivation high at your workplace when everyone else doesn't care much. you still need people to help you along. this is one thing i will never sacrifice. the hearts of the people.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

i'm so lost that i don't even know how to pen down my thoughts.

been neglecting too many things for too long. for a start, finance and fitness is in a mess.

some days, i just don't want to be alone, yet i don't want to entertain.

let's hope the buzz is going to bring me back up.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

quarter-life crisis.

the uncertainty at work is killing me. so much so that at times i wonder if i should just give up.

damn sick of having to share a room with bro. share a home in fact. why must i be the one to compromise all the time just to suit his timing?

just very lonely and cant find no one to talk to.

and that make me wonder if the problem is always me or is it just that i'm indeed being taken around for a ride?

let's hope thing take a turn around soon. :)