yes. i failed my driving test. amazing. although i was pretty confident, i was mentally prepared to fail it. good for me also. i guess i'm not ready and this will jolly well stop my thinking that i'm able to drive fast.
failure to release handbrake : x (2)
delay in moving off : X I (2)
insufficient acceleration : X I I (2)
fail to keep within lane : I (6)
unnecesarry stopping : X (2)
improper action causing accident (hit kerb while making a left turn) FAIL!
that was weird. the only time my handbrake was on was during the time when i first sat in the car and the slope. delay in moving off? he told me once i'm ready then move, so i took my own sweet time to get ready. that he give me demerit point? weird. insufficient acceleration? i thought i want to go slow in the driving circuit. damn. should have just be my normal self. fail to keep with lane? this, i must complain because this is the thing i was the most careful about and i was god damn sure i was well within the line. unnecessary stopping? don't we have to come to a complete stop if view of oncoming traffic was blocked? and well, the coup de grace. the god damn yellow box junction where i hit the kerb. damn. i hate yellow box junction. the other time when my car just entered it, traffic light turn yellow, so i stopped immediately. i was told it's a immediate failure to stop in yellow box. today, the moment my front wheels enter the yellow box at pathetic 20kmh, the blardy light turn yellow. i don't want to be accused of dashing red light so i make sure i'm clear of the line before it get red. so i push it up and make a left turn and there! the god damn kerb which i was always so fucking near. finally i hit it! hurray~
it doesn't matter. i just have to wait a few more months before giving it a try today. i was too nervous today. my heart was beating faster than when i was having a orgasm. haha. i thought of this while i was doing my vertical parking. lol.
let's look at things on the brighter side!
friends, i'm sorry to analyse but i noticed that there was significant difference in reaction when i told both sexes about my failure.
the dicks : "what happen? alamak, so easy you also can hit? you should have blah blah blah...."
the pussies : "oh gosh. don't brood over it ok? i'm sure you will be able to do it the next time"
i also know that it's easy to do that turn. i also know how to get it done. the thing is i already know what to do. i've made a mistake. that's it. i admit i make a mistake and i've learnt how to do it and why must they still tell me what i should have done? weird. as for the ladies, the moment they realised that i'm not actually bothered that i've failed, we move on to talk about other things smoothly. there was no awkward silence before the next person speak. so, there are, obviously, still differences.
the only thing i was dwelling about is how i've let people down. people who think i can pass the test easily. the disappointment in their eyes to know that i've made such silly mistakes. i'm sorry. i will be careful the next time.
and a random thought struck my mind: "maybe, to certain people, you don't have to put in so much to help them. they don't bother anyway." i always like to put in 100% effort in everything. i don't like to be sloppy. but i've learnt my lessons well. i've seen things clearly. there are people who only say hi to you when they need you. they know you can get things done. well, so next time, if you think you belong to the group which i will not put in the 100% effort, take note that i might forget to do certain things. you got to remind me man!
but still, i'm not a mean person.
kisses are sweet.