damn. i'm so careless that i lost a good 50 bucks to POSB/DBS. i was at the ATM withdrawing money, thinking about what to do next and alot of things. eventually, i walk away with my card, forgetting all about that blue Yusok bin Ishak. the worst is, i only realised it much later when i was about to pay for my lunch. hai~
anyway, i sounded so depressed last week. or rather, i was really depressed. however, now that i'm on long leave, i feel so good. the feeling of knowing that you don't have to go back work tmr is just splendid. don't be mistaken, i love my work. i love my ops room. i just hate the feeling of waking up early. i love the time i can spend with myself now. i've just beginning to love myself since the last 2 days. i was just questioning myself why didn't i do that the last time when i was still schooling, with all the long holidays. well, i guess it's just part of growing up. you need time to discover yourself and to love yourself. and eventually, you will spread your love. on that note, i might just pop by a church this sunday. got psycho-ed by my senior.
for a start, i've made a few ground rules for myself.
1) never touch the bed without a shower just before.
2) always ensure that the bed is tidy and the sheets are straight before leaving house. (yea..sometimes, i don't fold my blanket)
3) sleep early. if you have nothing to do and can't sleep, grab a book. i still have a few books to read.
4) get up before 9am everyday.
5) exercise.
6) avoid over-eating
7) get in touch with all your friends.
for a start, i went for some heat acclimatisation, doing some intervals at 1030am. not that i'm nuts but staying at temperature of about 18deg more than 8hours a day can do you harm. moreover, i always train at night, when the temperature is so low. time to get moving in the heat. it can get me tanned too. so why not?
i manage to rekindle the passion to train again. i feel so good running! (back just now, i was about to puke and faint!!)
did some grocery shopping at the neighbourhood shopping ground. now, i'm going for my lunch before heading for some sun-tanning. i love lying in the sun and reading. realised that when it was so noisy at home that i picked up a book and head to the pool. with the pool so crowded, i just laid there and get tanned. once the DVDs i've ordered arrive, i will have much more to do.
love yourself before you love others.