work has been rather boring. there's absolutely nothing for us to do. we simply chat our days away. recently, we started this research topic of the day, where we will discuss about some interesting stuff during breakfast and spend the whole day reading about it on the internet. then we will share. interesting hur.

some of the interesting things,
if time travel is possible, how come we don't see people from the future?
if u travel backwards in time and kill your father, what will happen?
if u can run faster than the speed of light and you turn around suddenly, what will u see? (ans = urself running backwards)
B-2 Spirit fly by using some anti-gravity shit.
F-16 falcon is a engineering marvel. it is a aerodynamically instable plane yet it is the most stable fighter jet.
roswell theory.
if u travel at the speed of light. time stop. (i still cannot get this but you can try to research on it)

sometimes i think i'm rather simple minded. the other day, my friend let me listen to a podcast of mrbrown. it is about this guy who ordered a bowl of bar chor mee and later claimed that he told the stall owner that he didn't want any tur kwa (pig liver). the stallowner showed him a video from the CCTV and insist on an explanation althought that poor customer apologize upteen times. oh well, i just laughed it off that night. now, i realised, it's a ridicule to the infamous gomez incident during the General Elections. i need to think more.

sometimes, i'm rather jealous of K and gang. when they sit down and have drinks or dinner together, they really talk. i mean, they do talk rubbish and silly jokes but they do talk about serious stuff. they think. and the best is, when they say that they are down, the rest will not steal the limelight. no one will try to shorten this painful thing about listening to others bitch by trying to offer solutions or say things like "aiya, dun worry la. it will get better". maybe that explains why i'm always hanging out with them. it's so much so that they tell me that i will never marry a typical jc-uni grad. they are speculating that i will get a smart poly grad instead. haha. it's true you know. i'm more turned on by poly grad because of the way they think.

sometimes, i can't get into the head of people around me. on the date of release of examination results, suddenly, i have alot of friends who will care about me and ask me about my results. so now, i'm trying to understand, are they geniunely concern about me or are they just looking around and see what's the "market rate"? i mean, if they are genuienly concern, then why will they only ask about me when it's such a day when there are hundred of opportunities out there? today, i'm only impressed by nicole. she's the first and only one to ask me if i'm alright and the whole conversation carried on without me feeling not wanting to talk or whatsoever. this is all that matters. now you know why i have a crush on her last time.

lastly, check this out. the ladder theory.

time = 36hrs
max = 40.2 deg cel
min = 37.5deg cel
number of panadols = 8

and i'm still fucking sick! suspect is exhaustion and infection. slept like 6hrs in total for 3 days. then sail a whole damn day without food and water and shade. and what is a long weekend without clubbing and alcohol for me?

but the best of all, i was STILL OK, until saturday night, when i suddenly feel the fever and the exhaustion. but since i already promised yw to celebrate her bday, i went out. and gosh. as fun as it is, i thought i almost fainted. but still it was fun.

alright, the drowsiness of the medicine is kicking in.

suddenly it hit me hard that my parents ain't young anymore and they might leave anytime.

last night, i was very much comforted that there are people out there who needs me as a big brother. it is good. i'm very happy that i'm giving people such sense of trust and security.

argh. i can't continue blogging. my mind isn't in the right frame of mind. i hate people leaving. i hate to see people being left.

caught this off a female blogger's. finally, someone who agree with me.


"
The Economist asked me the other day about marriage and I answered along the lines of, "I would marry for power, for access, or excitement but never really love, and love isn't really important in marriages. Money and the balance of power between partners are things that hold a legal union together,".

People who believe otherwise either live in dreams or are brought up in modern fairy tales. Rich husbands, powerful families, nurturing environments, that sort. If you are brought up in a harsh environment, you know love does not maintain a relationship not because you are bitter but because you know it's the way things work. You are bitter but your knowledge to the above is not in response to the bitterness you have experienced.

Now, love is One supplement in a relationship but it never determines the success of it all. Think about it. If you live in a relationship that allows you access to the things or places you desire, would you not be less likely to pick a fault in your partner and the relationship? How nice it is to come home to furniture that isn’t picked and paid off at Cash Converters, and a sound system that fits an audiophile. I think it is very unlikely that I would bark at my husband if I come home dog-tired and can enjoy a cuppa non-sugared tea in a cosy home environment. Then think about this. If you consume carboydrates out of a recycled box and tin food in a fucking shack, and cash flow is forever a fucking problem, and holidays are out of the question, love is the last thing on your mind. Love shack it is indeed. Survival will be the first thing you think of every day. Fights will occur often because of all the resentment, bitterness and frustration. Negativity thrives in such a relationship.

I am right about this through and through. Without money, your partner will not be deemed sweet because he cannot afford a decent holiday or an i-whateverfuck for you. Let's say both of you cannot afford a car. Without a car, your partner is denied of the chance to be thoughtful because he cannot drive you around. He cannot buy you one too because he does not have money, remember? And let's say you don't give a fuck about cars like me. That's cool. But surely you would give some fucks about the places you dine at [even if it happens only on special days]. Surely you give a fuck about the shoes he wears! Life's like that. A person's worth is decided for by the things he can offer. In an Asian family, your partner’s worth is determined by the size of his pay check or the status of his family. In school, our worth is determined by how fast we can run for our teams, how far we can compete academically with the rest.

There are other things our partners can do for us to certify their worth, but the simplest, most convenient way to determine it is by the fulfilment of materialist desires. Although I get really upset when I am handed a box of Godiva because the act of “love” is so much cheapened with convenience, I know I am at least thought of.

You stand for your partner because he buys the kids expensive toys and you, your IT bag of the year, or a Jura-Capresso coffeemaker. Or it could be something as simple as he being capable of mending your cupboard. Love has become marred by the things your partner can do for you. It isn't so much the "love" you have of him that keeps you together. It is the things you can provide and make convenient for each other that allow the relationship to go on.

Yes, women kick butts in the gyms these days, and they can afford their own dildos and designer kitchenware but will they not love more men who can maintain their lifestyles together with them?

I guess what I am trying to say is this: Love never holds two people together more strongly than other factors in a real relationship.

Do not tell me otherwise unless you are fuck-poor and still happy and satisfied in your long-term relationship. Oh we know what poverty means.

Now, talk."

"where the truth lies"

is a damn good show! initially when i was asked to watch it, i thought it is just another lovey dovey show with nude scenes. when i sat down and watch, i started to get disappointed. however, just before my mind switch off, the excitement arrived. a murder scene. and a series of things began to happen that will blow you off your seat. every now and then, when i thought that i got the whole plot figured out, there's a UNEXPECTED twist. so the whole show just keep making us feel bad because we keep guessing the wrong things. even at the very last scene.

go watch it!