maybe training at such intensity when you have such a stressful job isn't healthy at all. i get sick all the time. seriously down. then again, if i don't train at such, i don't find the kick, i wouldn't make the mark.

find your motivation.

believe it or not, it was all a joke.

it's fun to bring a imaginary character into your life.

maybe i need a psychiatrist.

wild night.

i still cannot get over the habit of using alcohol to suppress my sadness.

nonetheless, it was fun being driven around by babes. to be treated like a prince (or king).

i think girls just think the same, don't they? i love them as much.

don't try to start a war with me. you can't win me in psychological warfare. get lost.

if you can't win it, don't lose it.

i watched 'eye for a guy' last night. gosh! are those guys for real or do they have a script to follow? it's like committing the worst mistakes while trying to impress a woman. jealousy, sarcasm, narrow-minded and back stabbing. oh god. wake up. generousity will certainly impress denise keller. i'm sure of that. sometimes, whatever you feel like doing at the spur of moment, control it and do the opposite, it will bring you butterflies!

so, after the show, i thought of the qoute above. this guy called daniel pulled denise aside and complain about the other guy. he know he can't win that guy but he don't have to stoop so low to lose the ball game altogether. stupid. anyway, the qoute reminded me of what my seniors taught me. he was giving us an example like how if we finished a project and people didn't appreciate much, don't go around trying to promote your project. because maybe the management has already noticed it and felt that it was good (just that they have no time to comment yet), and if they see you promoting yourself, it's just such a turn off. isn't it? so all the credits will go down to drain!

changes are good.

ever since i picked up the pace of training again, i felt good. i felt wonderful. for instant, i do not indulge in some extravagance lifestyle no more. i actually take public transport(buses and trains) to and fro work now. i spend less. or rather, i save unless there's absolute need to spend. i train right after work. well, that's something i have never done before. to carry all the gears to work and go to the pool right after. i motivate myself. basically, life just turn for the better.

maybe it's the charity thing. it made me realised that sometimes, we are not just living for ourselves. life is just not about how happy we are. it brought a whole new meaning to the chinese phrase, "giving is more than taking".

well, on that note, believe or not, my weekends are now packed with charities. this weekend, i'm going to help out with some organisation of family day. and i just called Touch Community to volunteer my service for the mini-triathlon they are organising for the diabetes next weekend. and the best thing, they might need some help in forming a full relay team. now, i'm thinking, if i were scheduled into the team, there will be a brand new motivation to swim, bike or run faster! it's good. life is good.

on that note, i would encourage you guys to help out at Singapore Triathlon. it include some attractive allowances. visit http://www.singaporetriathlon.com/en/volunteers/?sid=23525.

have you found yours today?

alright. some updates.

sunday : did a time trial (60km) on my bike. felt great. can be even faster but was saving my energy

monday : felt amazingly good the whole day. body was alert. must be due to the workout on sundays. i mean, how often was i moving my body on a sunday previously? did a 5km run. perfect

tuesday : did some swim. my upper body was still aching from the previous day pull ups. then again, with the motivation in my head, i carried on a 20lap warm up follow by 6 laps of burst and 5 laps of drills. not much. i was very very hungry.

my fitness is just getting better! cross country riding at pulau ubin this sat, or ride to sentosa this weekend or go to sentosa for a run. any takers?

alright. i'm going to join the Osim Triathlon but it cost $88!!!. gosh! any sponsors? my jersey still have lotsa space and it's definitely too plain looking right now. please call me for discussion.

yea. amazingly, my swim has improved rather tremendously. now it's time to look at my running and riding. i last ran 1month ago.

Rudy Project Freeon (with 2 additional lenses) : $180
Giordana Team CTS jersey : $76

not much money left i guess.

anyway, i'm feeling rather guilty now. after stepping up on these trainings again, i just have the urge to keep moving. last night, i didn't want to go clubbing but because of promises made early, the phone never stop ringing. i went, eventually. everybody is asking why do i look so gloomy. because i totally hate it there now. i totally just don't feel like it. see, that's what happen if you do things which you don't want to.

anyway, i realised i'm still living under G's shadow. damn it!

FUCKING HELL!!!!!

finally i can post something. finally my IE is working.

checkout www.geekstogo.com
definitely a good website to clear all your computer problems. gosh! i spent like 2hrs trying to clean-up my computer. now i have to make my speakers work.

i'n shagged out. at least, now, i'm making full use of 24hrs. just got back from J's place. gosh. i'm supposed to leave at 2am but we have important things to discuss. important, real important.

like i said to her, life is definitely different with a gf around. first and foremost, i see the finer things in life. next, i do not want to waste my time. every moment is precious.

now, i'm just sleepy.

walk with me

alot of things happened over the long weekend. most are pleasant and they set me thinking.

firstly, i had a hell of a time on saturday at the wedding dinner and the clubbing trip. drank a bottle of red wine and a bottle of white wine at the function. to think 2 glasses of red wine made me sleep previously. then it's down to MW where i finish a bottle of Jack Daniel's just in one night. omg. i wonder how i did that. well, from most people, i was walking around which i don't remembered. only remembered that i hang on to her tightly coz i know she's sober. then it's back to the hotel where i knocked out and slept till 4pm the following day.

secondly, a movie trip with J. everyone told me that there will not be plans for the night. yea. after i promised to stay with her for the whole night, sms-es never stop coming in. calls never stop to hurry me down. MW again, where i finish another half bottle of Jack Daniel's. great. i'm intoxicated. that's not the main point anyway. it's been so long, SO long since someone last held my hand, look at me with sincerity and said, "have your fun, but don't drink so much ok? it's isn't really healthy." and the best of all, she waited for me, with a friend of course. aw.

thirdly, while making appointments for my driving lessons, my uncle talked to me in such a amazed manner when i mentioned i didn't have plans for mother's day. maybe i should do something about that.

last but not least, the most romantic idea in the most unromantic town of singapore, toa payoh. well..i was glad that i didn't sleep my day away after 2 nights of intoxication. or rather, i slept only 4 hours and i'm out to fulfil what i've promised. well, in a land of old flats and old people, we managed to spend 3 lovely hours together, in each other arms. mind you, it's not those lousy parks or some dark corners. it's a lovely place with beautiful scenery. it's a lovely day today anyway. like i said, things are just about sleeping, working and partying when you have someone to share. life is different. i can wake up so early just to reply a msg.

it's so nice to have a fan.