some people think tt completing an Olympic distance triathlon (1.5km swim + 40km bike + 10km) run is tough. mine is going to start at 12noon. how great. last wave. i will have lots of motivation to finish because i don't wan to be the last of the day. and the best thing? i have to report at 0830. what nonsense.

triathlon expo was great. not because of anything but just the beautiful people there. seriously. everyone is in such good shape tt i feel ashame carrying the same race pack as they do. this sunday, even if you are not interested in the sun or the sports, you can just go down to east coast park to have a drool of the lifetime.

went to polar (hivelocity) to get my tri-shorts just now and guess what? the sales executive there are damn beautiful as well!!!!!!

triathlon is just such a beautiful sport.

anyway, just back from trying out the new tri-shorts. at the look of it, the padding is rather useless. however, amazingly, it work. so for short distance i guess it's ok. and i'm glad that i bought it. these 2 days, i can see a huge difference between brands. firstly, the racebelt by newbalance costs $9 wheres the one by fuelbelt costs $15. i was put off by the price initially. things are different when i start to observe them. the one by fuelbelt is actually elastic and materials for the hooks and the locks are all much better. even the design by newbalance look very sloppy.

also, the tri-shorts. the newbalance one are just $30. the padding is simply another piece of cloth. the one i bought today, the de soto one, costs $90 but i must say. it is definitely worth it. the padding is better, the material is better, even the elastic band is better.

ok, this sunday is a good race. i can feel it. my body can feel it. it's all thanks to the abstinence of alcohol. btw, without alcohol, i feel that my brain is working much better. it's like i can think faster, think better and i seldom fall into a daze. then again, maybe that's because of all the training lately. nonetheless, it's still good. haha.

yay~

today, i realised why i loved to club so much.

it is the attention that i can get. as much as i'm just out for drinks because i respect her for trusting me, i do get young girls who try too hard to get my attention and a OL age woman who flirt with me across the bar. i mean, the young gals look at you, then stand right in front of you shaking her ass away. bleah. then the OL who smile at you each time she bite the cherry. WTF!? the best of all, to have gals coming up to you for your contacts. oh well, clubbing is still fun. but i'm not really interested in it anymore.

it's good to realise you still have some form of attractiveness.

will you love a girl who stood by you UNCONDITIONALLY? nothing about her is important. everything about you is. all she's satisfied is that you appear and carry the grocery bags for her. note: grocery, not shopping. how can anyone not touched by that?! there're more but well, some things are just meant for me to know. haha. just note that, she has done something for me that i don't think any girl would have done it before knowing that the man is CONFIRMED the boyfriend.

oh well, tough choice.

and finally, the government is clamping down on massage parlours! i used to find it so irritating when i saw their advertisements on The Newpaper. then the advertisements got more! then they start to open parlours at housing estates! btw, for the uninitiated, it is obviously some illegal vice. why would a masseuse wear such revealing clothes? nonetheless, i hope the government just kill them off.

keep my country clean.

sometimes, i myself know that why i don't have a gf. i'm too selfish and i think that having a gf is a complete waste of time. for such, i normally give it up halfway. i seriously think that alot of effort need to be put in. just take this week, out of 5 days, i met her for 2 days, or rather, nights. end up i didnt sleep well and cause alot of yawning at work. then came the request to want to see me. sometimes, i just wish that i can do my own things at my own time. there's just too much things for me at this moment. accomodating someone into my time just isn't a good idea.

the ride up to kuantan was superb! although my ass and my legs hurts after the ride, i realised i've learnt alot. cycling techniques and stuff aside, the logistics, the PR, etc...so much! and it was a good holiday. spending time in a place where things don't seem to rush. cars that are willing to slow down and drive behind you and cheer you. kids who lined the streets and waved at you. it's good for the soul. i'm going to do more of such things. and the best of it, it further strengthened my ambition to just spend the rest of my life farming in a quiet place.

sometimes, we are moving so fast that we can't even slow down to think about the possibility of leading a good (soul) life. no one around me seems to understand why i want to farm. all they think about is "you don't get rich by farming", "you don't get to enjoy alot of things". hai. how sad. isn't it?

respect for all formula cars racers!!!

went to johor bahru to play go-kart. oh man! it was great! while waiting for my turn, i thought i will be damn lousy because the car look fast and low. i thought it will be hard to see corners. my morale dropped even low after seeing alot of people spinning out etc.

when i start moving around, oh gosh! great! it's damn fast and you can really feel the lateral G-forces pulling you. the vibration is another irritant. although i start last on the grid (random) and my car stalled at the start. i was lagging behind by at least 150m when my go-kart started moving. not bad. i moved up slowly. lap by lap, car by car, i reached 2nd position. i was literally touching the bumper of the leader but i just couldn't find a way to sneak past him. a mistake cost me to lose my 2nd placing. damn.

amazingly, we perspired alot! and we are feeling tired only after 5 laps. respect for the formula one drivers whose speed is about 5 times more than ours, G-forces more than ours, and a whooping 70 laps! respect.

so, whoever think formula cars racing ain't a sports should try go-karting!

and i'm already planning to go up north to play that once a month. it's THAT SHIOK!

have been rather lazy to log on to internet. my life evolve around work and training now only.

has been rather pissed with a thing lately. why do people who entertain human beings earning more than people who make a difference in our lives? it all started when i compared the earnings of a soccer player and a triathlete. the triathlete definitely have to train harder and be more discipline with his/her diet but the soccer player simply earn more just because it brings entertainment to us. 130,000 pounds a week! HOW THE FUCK to finish spending that!??! it all got worse when i watch a chinese feature on some pop singer. compared that to an engineer who build ur house. you probably throw the CD away after like 3 years but you will be staying under the same roof for 30years!

digusting.

i've been training hard. for the sake of the osim and nus triathlon. in january, i told myself, if i can clock sub-3hr, i will award myself with a polar HRM to take my training to the next level. and i want that HRM!!! knowing that my mind normally give up quite easily, i adopt this new method to train both my body and my mind. i keep telling myself "train till the muscles fail!" it works alot of wonder. i always take it until my body almost want to give up. this is drilling in me alot of discipline. another good thing is also im damn alert these days. my mind is very sharp. this might be also enhance by the fact that i've been staying away from alcohol and the fact that i'm doing stuff that may affect the lives of you people if we ever go to war. the brain is constantly thinking. shiok!

but wtf am i still so fat? fren told me that it's major water retention problem. i hope that's the case. damn.

NUS seriously need some pushing before they can start to work. in april, i was rejected of hostel stay for next semester. not satisfied, i sent an email in for an appeal. they replied me with an standard email stating that there's nothing that they can do and i would have to wait till august and queue up like the rest on the waiting list. i didn't give up. i sent another email stating how the whole system of CCA points was unfair and how the waiting list only start in august is inefficient. i go on to give one whole list of suggestions of what they can do.

the next thing i know, they offered me a room. hahahahaha!

i've changed.

i used to want to live in big houses and drive merc. i used to want my family to eat in nice restaraunt every weekend. now i don't. now i just want to settle down in a HDB flat, a car will be bonus. i can eat from coffee shop. i rather we spend time together cooking during weekends. i just want to love my wife and kids. maybe all these chasing for the "good" lifestyle has made me very tired.

i used to take cabs. now i take buses. i used to spend $100++ when i go club. last week i spent only $70 per trip. now i don't even want to go. i used to buy things or food without thinking how much is left. now i find lunch that cost $3 in the canteen expensive. i've changed but what caused it? i feel good that i've changed but i'm just uncomfortable not knowing what change me.

we were discussing about staying at home versus hanging outside with your friends. the key issue is what do you achieve at the end of the night after the hanging out. could you have achieve better by doing your own things at home? when we go out, we spend money. even if it means to take a bus to the mall to meet up. staying at home, you save money and you spend time with your family.when we are out, we bond with friends. but my theory is always there's only certain outings that will create bonding. not all outings will results in better bonding.

which brings us to another question. are we spending time or are we wasting time if we were all at home together but each doing their own things. the argument is that parents feel at ease seeing their kids at home. then again, sometimes, the longer you stay at home, the more you fight with your parents. family issues are all different. some family have a top down policy while others have parents taking a step down to close the generation gap and hence, enhancing communications in the family.

enough about issues.

damn. i was feeling quite weird when i keep feeling fat although i've trained more and ate less. i suspected it's the caffeine i took every morning. i had this experience. there was a period of time when i started drinking tea every morning. i felt fat though nothing else has changed. so, i went on a search on the internet today. i shall believe that the feeling of fat and bloatedness is due to the caffeine and the medicine i have been taking. both caffeine and the contents of the medicine cause water retention in the body which will relate to less fats being burned and the feeling of being fat. oh well, now i just have to find out why i feel bloated.

chatting with my colleagues today, i realised i've transformed from a guy who's soft-hearted and give in to girls easily to become a guy who knows the little tricks to make gal want more of me. oh well, i can only say that the environment has changed that. the lain issue is certainly one big changing point. other than that, i also realised, no point being a good guy. you don't get the girl and you are taken advantage of. so why not make things go your way. make people love you. make people want you. sadly, i'm still easily touched. just that i don't show it now. i used to do things to TRY to impress people with my heart. now i do it with my brain.

i can't believe i've worked out a way to improve myself. project stronger-me2. it shall be a better plan. plans are more concrete and feasible this time.

wish me luck.

i ate a cherry. it was sweet but sticky.

my theory for BGR? simply boh chup. don't care. just sit and wait.

girls have this thing about the guy they love. the moment you are someone they love, they will go all out for you. if you are not, no point trying. because everything you do is just wrong. take for example, when the guy she loves go for an opera, she will think "how nice..he's into the arts.". however, if it's just someone who has been trying, she will probably think "is he trying to be sophisticated?" oh well~

and when:

1) she goes out of her way to rush home after work just to make you warm honey water because you have a soar throat
2) she bought alot alot ALOT of cough drops and lozenges for you
3) she give you..................................

you know you've got it. of course, there're alot of little tricks in between. not tricks to bluff her that you are a different person but tricks to make her want more of you.

damn i'm easily touched.

try this psychology analysis test. of course, it must be done when your mind is very peaceful and there's absolutely no interference. it must be your first reaction and not what you think.

you are walking in this extremely big forest. you saw an animal. what is it?
you continue walking in this big forest and you saw a second animal. what is it?
walking on, you saw a house in the middle of the forest. describe it.
walking nearer, you realised that the door is ajar. the next moment, you are inside the house. recall how you get into the house. did you barge in? did you survey the surrounding first? etc etc.
you saw a table in the middle of the house. what's its shape?
there are chair(s) around the table. how many chairs are there?
there's a jar of milk on the table. of what material is the jar made of?
how much milk is there in the jar?
you walked out of the house, back into the forest. you heard a familiar voice. whose voice is it?
the forest suddenly turn into a desert! a horse ran past you. what colour is it?
you saw a box lying in the sands. describe the size of the box.
you saw a pyramid and went in. the moment you step in, there's a flight of stairs. are they going up or down?
suddenly, there's a very strong earthquake. knowing either ways will keep you safe. will you 1) hide in the box? 2) hide under the stairs? 3) ride the horse and gallop away?

that's it.