an irony to the previous post, i had a hell of a time all by myself today. had lotsa thinking about everything and anything.

on that note, i was just thinking today, i'm very sure that i can do something great. i can definitely do more than what i'm doing now. but why am i not doing it? maybe i should stop hoping for a opportunity to drop from the sky for me to try out something great and leave a good impression from there. maybe i'm still stuck at the lower end because everytime i'm there, i felt grumpy and all having not to be the leader. and most importantly, following instructions of which, i could have given better. and with the old saying, a good leader is a good follower, i resolve to just do best in whatever i can. meanwhile, i shall stop the habit of giving up something totally once i know i cant get it to be the best. every effort counts. i've definitely missed out alot just because of that. look at the degree, look at your ironman ambition, look at everything!

let's keep the motivation up! :)


having good feelings about my future.